BROWN ABSTRACT...FINISHED!!
IN PROCESS...FRUSTRATION POINT
Today proved to be more difficult finding time to work on projects. After a full day of activities and getting our kids to bed I was exhausted. I fell asleep on the couch watching TV when I was startled awake by my realization...I HAVE to paint! Notice that something that brings me such joy and relaxation and fills me up is now considered a "have to". Next came many temptations. Even my husband was wanting me to do something else. I was struggling with this commitment to create.THE PROCESS
I can only describe my weird journey this evening like this: tv? movie? bed? food! tantrum. frustration. blocked. giving in. confused. questioning. flow. create. acomplishment! It was like a wild ride that lasted an hour. I wanted to sleep. I wanted to scream. Why do I put off this activity that connects me with who I am more than anything else. One word...temptation.
SELF-DOUBT
The bottom of the two pictures above was taken at a point of total frustration. I had choosen to paint in browns with bold colors mixed in. I had already fallen in love with the colors in yesterday's wine art so I thought this could be my inspiration for today. I started painting and all this crap talk started entering my head. "What are you doing? You didn't plan this out first? You need to scrape off the paint and start over. Do something else" This voice was screaming from inside my head, but not my heart. I listen to my heart. So I took a deep breath and put on my "never give up" hat and kept at it. The final result is nice. I wonder how I'll feel about it tomorrow. Yesterday, I thought my wine painting was lovely yet ruined by the word "fruity" that I put on it. Today I love it. I cannot stop absorbing the colors. It makes me happy.
It's snowing outside. All that snow that melted today has now been replaced with more snow. Tomorrow's a new day and a new perspective. See you then!
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